Turned out husband had appendicitis.
Terrible dehydration because he didn’t drink anything the night he spent in pain and confusion, then wasn’t allowed to eat or drink anything the full day while they were diagnosing him, and the full night after his surgery he couldn’t have anything either, which means more than 36 hours with nothing at all.
Had some mild complications after coming home after surgery, including a post-operative fever of 104 degrees that led to a trip back to the hospital by ambulance and another hospital stay for some IV antibiotics.
Finally made it home for good, and two of his ribs popped out a bit from his spine, sending his whole back into spasm. Was super painful, and is still lingering. Probably something to do with either drug-induced heavy sleeping, or contorting in a waiting room chair, or something his muscles did while he was convulsing from the fever or curled up in pain from the appendix. Not fun.
Many, many, many nights without sleep for both of us, but he is now kind of sort of getting better.
I am hanging in there as well as I can with no sleep and tons of stress (neither of which are good for keeping this illness at bay). But I’ve been the full-time caregiver in this house for the past week. Am doing WAY better than I might have guessed (thank you, Equilibrant!), but I won’t say there wasn’t a point this past weekend where I was literally crying because my husband needed pillows under his legs to take the strain off his surgery site, and I realized they were all the way at the other end of the hall. And I was lying on the floor, because my legs just would not carry me anymore no matter how hard I pushed.
It’s been a long time since I’ve reached that point. But this time, thankfully, I recovered some eventually, and it didn’t become my new normal. I’m resting every second I can, and not doing much else besides sleeping and fetching meals, but I’m getting through it, and I’m reasonably certain that I won’t have any major lasting damage as a result if all keeps going as it has been. Of course, there’s no guarantee and very little predictability with this illness, but I’m hopeful that I should bounce back.
I have to bounce back.
Please, please let me bounce back.
But he is okay, and home, and safe, and that’s the most important thing by far.