4:50pm. Half an hour ago, I was considering what else I wanted to do most today. Doing didn’t seem difficult. Now, I am exhausted, and activities no longer seem interesting. Involved activities no longer seem possible. Frustrating. When the medication is in my system, I forget how much is truly sucks now when it’s not. When it’s gone, I forget how truly possible things used to be, and I find myself just wanting time to pass me by so that I can try again tomorrow.
I can easily see why the dopamine reuptake inhibitors can become addictive. I’m feeling pretty dependent already, and I haven’t even been taking them a week yet.