I wonder if police officers get frustrated that it takes them so long to drive anywhere because everywhere they go everybody is driving just under the speed limit.
Just sayin’…
Have been feeling off and on much more like my usual self for the past few days. Unfortunately the “off” periods are still filled with crazy sulking tearstained not-me-ness, but I’ll take what I can get. Not sure if it’s related to a sign that my withdrawal symptoms will be starting to improve now, or the Wellbutrin, or the beautiful spring weather, but I won’t complain either way.
I love spring. I get all crazy enthusiastic in those first spring days. I get strange new reserves of energy during daylight hours. I feel much more like I could tackle anything I set my mind to (Except maybe bears. At least angry ones. Peaceful bears I could totally take down today.). I can’t really yet, but feeling that way is a step in the right direction. I normally get quite frisky in the spring as well. We’ll see how the medications deal with that one.
I get a lot of memory flashbacks in the first days of warmer weather too. I don’t know what it is, but I am instantly bombarded with warm days from many different years of my life. This doesn’t happen with other seasons (no memories of the first snowfall), but it happens every single year in the spring. Currently, I am purchasing our house, starting to meditate, planning my wedding, finishing exams, starting part time jobs, and hanging out with my friends from high school. At least, in my head I am. In reality I’m going with sit outside and read a self-help book.
At any rate, the last few days have had good points, and that’s news in and of itself. A week ago I was struggling to push myself to feed my cat. Today I am clean, and dressed (in real clothes!), and made myself a nice lunch, and received delivery of our new washing machine, and plan still to get outside, and do some reading, and who knows what else. Maybe it saddens me a little that these are such huge accomplishments, but they are, and I am overall pleased. I have made a commitment that I will at least be showered, and brushed, and reasonably well-dressed, and reasonably fed every day for the foreseeable future. No negotiations. No exceptions.
Incidentally, the washing machine that came with our house was a Maytag Neptune. Do you know what happens when you google Maytag Neptune? You get a whole slew of pages telling you why you should not ever ever ever buy a Maytag Neptune. Which I will echo. I really wish the previous owners had been a little more internet savvy. I also wish I hadn’t spent so much time and money trying to clean and repair the thing before doing that search myself.
I know. Who ever would have thought you’d see something bad about a Maytag on the internet?
Tags: house, routine, things almost as frustrating as the surprise flea infestation in our living room carpet, weather