My home practice for the meditation course this week let me alternate body scan with mindful yoga. This was happy and welcome news, as the body scan and I have not always been getting along well. Yoga is infinitely more pleasant, if only because I can remain conscious while I’m doing it. The process of changing activities and sensations frequently also means that my thoughts are drifting a lot less frequently. Anyway, a pleasant change.
My body is still producing lasting angry red patches whenever I use my muscles or something contacts my skin. Like,…oh,…underwear. Or other parts of my skin. Those kinds of crazy things. I am undeniable quite itchy, and have resigned myself to the fact that I will likely need to revisit the doctor. Does it say something for my desperation that I was giving serious consideration to whether I could cope with the itch forever if it meant keeping my Wellbutrin?
I am a determined little thing sometimes. As noted above, most days I chose to do the yoga rather than the stationary body scan. The yoga where I use my body a lot, and, you know, contact things.
I am itchy…but flexible.
Tags: Antidepressants, body scan, itch, mindfulness, things I prefer to the body scan (of which there are many), Wellbutrin, yoga