The husband and I are heading up to a friend’s cottage this weekend for most of the coming week. I like to tentatively lay out to-do lists for the remaining days in situations like these. I find it reassuring to see that I still have plenty of time to get done what needs to get done before we leave, and know that I’ve got a handle on things. Ambiguous needs stress me out a little. Probably because I’m not the type of person who will go into that situation by doing the ambiguous but needful stuff first. I’m more likely to be doing more entertaining things until the last possible moment. At any rate, we’re getting close to departure now, which means I’ve entered the stage of revising my to-do lists so as to put as much as possible tomorrow rather than today. This also is a common feature of this type of time. My schedules tend to be a little front-loaded on the more enjoyable activities. =)
It should be a good week. I’m never 100% certain with this particular grouping of people. They were good friends of my husband’s before we met, and have gradually become better friends of mine, but we’re not quite all the way there yet. Sometimes I feel liked, and included, and have a lot of fun. Sometimes I feel a little left out. They all share some common interests and activities that I share, and some that I can’t really relate to or participate in (online games, etc. that I don’t play). So it generally depends on what the current topics of discussion are. It probably doesn’t help that when I was first getting to know them I inadvertently rubbed one of them the wrong way by reminding him of somebody he didn’t like. And I get totally awkward when I pick up that somebody’s not liking me. Awk-ward. I’m not the type of person who can just let that roll off them yet.
But we’re okay now. …Probably. I think.
Saw the new therapist again the other day. She seems quite good. In addition to the daily walking, and other activities, and goal-setting, and journaling, and independence-building, this week she’s assigned me the task of going into as many different stores or other establishments as I can and asking as many obvious questions as I can, building up to the stupidest questions I can think of. I’m not a big fan of appearing incompetent, or of asking other people for help, so the combination is probably a good one. …Even if it does mean that yesterday I had to ask the Starbucks people what I should order if I want a steamed milk (turns out it’s “steamed milk”). Actually, I believe what I wanted was a tall, no-whip, hazelnut crème, one pump. But who am I to tell her that.
I think I’m going to have some fun with this while we’re away. Too much blatant stupidity is rough in a smallish area where people know who I am, but out in the middle of cottage country… Heh heh heh. “So…Do you know who drains the lake in the winter?” The trick is that I’ll have to make them realistic enough that they think that I’m serious. I know that there’s at least a grocery store. Suggestions for grocery-themed dumb questions welcome.
Also, do any of you know where they keep the internet when I’m not using it?