My task for the coming week is to try to break down and analyze the subtle “LORD NO PLEASE DON’T MAKE ME DO IT I DON’T WANT TO DO IT KEEP IT AWAY ACK ACK” reaction that I sometimes have to work-related or administrative tasks. You have paperwork to be done? I can do that for you. Here, let me help. I have paperwork to be done? ….Wait, where did I go? …Me? … Hello? …Bueller?
I think maybe it has something to do with how long I’ve been putting off…Er…I mean, legitimately unable to complete it. The longer it sits in that pile on my desk, giving me judgmental sidelong glances, the less I want to have anything to do with it. See, by that time it comes all tied up with reassuring things like stress, and guilt, and feelings of failure. And I’m just not always nice enough to allow myself that kind of reassurance.
(I’m a bitch like that sometimes.)
On the plus (and completely unrelated) side, on my way home today I finally remembered to pick up some BBQ lighters. I like them for lighting candles, and aromatherapy diffuser thingies (Don’t judge – research says that they might actually help. And I don’t actually own any hemp, nor to my knowledge has anything I’m currently wearing been tie dyed.), and the citronella candles for our backyard. And with the overwhelming burden of all of these many things that I simply must light on fire, I figured that more than one lighting device, located in more than one location, might be handy to have. I’m not entirely sure what the cashier thought when I went in and purchased three barbeque lighters and a roll of tape. I’m sure it was perfectly innocent.